11 May 2009

Dear Mom,

I miss you. Wish you could be here for the craziness that is my life. I think you'd like it. The craziness and my life. I think you would be proud of me. Let's talk to you in present-tense, yeah? I think you are proud of me.

I'm pretty sure you like my short hair. You've always said I look good with short hair. It's probably because I inherited your face shape. You look good with short hair. Or longer hair. Truth is, you just look good. Always so beautiful. So naturally beautiful. I talk about your striking eyes often. They're the feature I miss seeing the most.

It's Mother's Day today. But, I'm writing to you after midnight, so it's not actually Mother's Day anymore. So, happy belated Mother's Day. It was also the two year anniversary. A big day. Mother's Day and May 10. They were on the same day this year.

I went to the cemetery and sat in the grass by your stone. The grass is green by your stone. It is green and soft. I love running my toes through soft grass. You like soft grass too. And you like mowing grass. I hope you're mowing a lot of grass these days.

I have school again in the morning. I want to whine to you about that. I don't really want to go to class and I don't really want to do homework and I don't really want to take tests. But, I'm going to do it anyway. I need advice. How do you stay motivated when you just think you have reached your limit? How do you make yourself wake up at eight when nothing in you wants to?

More advice is needed. Advice is always needed. If you get a chance, send me advice. Frankly, I don't even care the topic. Just send advice if you can.

It was Mother's Day and I just want to tell you that you are the best. It's true, you're the very best. And I wanted to tell you that I miss you. Because I do.

Love,
Laura

P.S. We stole the lavender flowers that we put on your stone for Mother's Day. But, they were hanging over the road and I don't think anyone will mind. Just wanted to confess.

4 comments:

rich(elle) said...

This is beautiful. I wish I had the courage to write a letter like this for my Dad. I hope the advice you need comes to you soon, and in unexpected ways. That's the best kind. :)

Lindsey Anne said...

Laura I loved reading this. You have such an amazing ability to express what you want to say. You need to be published!

Ronaldo7 said...

Beautiful.

Rebecca said...

This actually made me tear up. Laura your talent for writing beautifully and capturing emotion is wonderful. This moved me! Thanks